Thankful Obedience

I have spent a good part of  the day trying to organize my thoughts; there are so many.  In doing so, I started to become a wee bit discouraged and had to place myself back at the feet of Jesus.  It’s really the only good place to be when I seem to have used up my own strength once again.  I talked to him about my hopes and fears and whatever ever he’d have me to do with my gifts, just to make sure that I am always doing it for his glory and not mine.  I tried to read my devotions to hear him speak, but it proved fruitless at the time.  As I was paging through my Bible, desperately seeking for a nugget of truth and hope, God landed me in a passage that I marked at the end of 2 Corinthians 12-15. It goes a little something like this: “This service that you perform is not only supplying the needs of God’s people but is the overflowing in many expressions of thanks to God. 13 “Because of the service by which you have proved  yourself; men will praise God for the obedience that accompanies  your confession of the gospel of Christ, and for your generosity in sharing with them and with everyone else.  14 And in their prayers for you their hearts will go out to you, because of the surpassing grace God has given you. 15 Thanks be to God for his indescribable gift!”   This verse helped me see that I am obeying right here, right now, in this season that God has me in.  I am blessing  others with my gifts, even if to me they seem small and insignificant, I must stop trying to view my spiritual successes in the light of the rest of the rebellious world around me that sees success in the bigger the better and the higher up the more successful.  God is trying to remind me here that when I share what He is doing in my life with others, when I use my time and writing to glorify Him by my obedience, He is using me.  He is blessing me and I know He is blessing others through it as well.  I don’t know what it is that always seems to pull me back when I start gaining some clarity on things, but I am so thankful that I have gotten to a place that I know when I need to be at his feet, because I know he will always meet me there.  Thank you Father, for once again showing me that I’m alright, and I need to just re-focus my vision sometimes because I think that I know which way I want to go, but it’s you who will direct my path and you who will form me into the person that you want me to be in this world.  Thank you  Jesus for meeting me, and Thank you Holy Spirit for guiding me to bring God glory once again in my own little way on  this blog.  To God be all the Glory, Amen!